Pics and a little bit about the past month

This is a pic of us on Thanksgiving Day...isn't he a cutie???
Shortly before Christmas, we moved in with him. It's been awesome! It's a good feeling to come home to someone after work, whom appreciates you, your hugs & kisses, your cooking and cleaning and someone to sit & relax with.

This is us on New Years Eve! (I got him that shirt for Christmas) We celebrated at a lil bar called Twisters. We had an awesome time and it was so wonderful to bring in the new year with someone so wonderful. We slow danced a couple of times and chatted to friends. Oh, he picked me up once off my seat and danced holding me off the ground...he's so silly! :)

January has been an adventure in itself. We found out we were expecting, only to survive a miscarriage shortly after. That dream was so short lived. It's been a rollercoaster of emotions for both of us. I am still struggling with the loss, probably a little more than I think I am. Women are so much more stronger than I ever thought...a loss is a loss and a baby is a baby, no matter how small. I loved my baby, even at 6 weeks. My heart aches for the little baby I will never know or hold or see or smell. I ache for all the hopes I already had for this baby. I ache at the thought that there are no pictures or name to give this baby. God had his reasons and I understand that but I still wonder why...why...why...

~My Angel was too beautiful for Earth~

Since the loss, we have discussed marriage. To do this right...get married, then have a baby. It scares me to think about trying again. Being Rh negative can cause multiple issues and multiple miscarriages. I pray for a healthy baby, that's all...when God's ready!

~Our Story~

I wanted to share our love story with you, so here it goes. Let me start off saying that I was in a relationship during the past year and half. It was an unstable and very unhealthy relationship...complete with screaming fights, lies, constant arguements, heartbreak and a few breakups. During one of these breakups, I met Ronnie in May of 2011.

Unfortunately, I cannot say we have been together since we met. I fell into the drama of my previous relationship and went back, not once to try to make it work, but twice...Ronnie was there by my side through it all. Until the last time I went back in August, Ronnie decided he couldn't be my "band-aid" anymore. At the time I didn't see it like that but I now understand.

Throught the grafe of God, my ex & I broke up for good in November. I can only attribute my getting out of that relationship to God, for He kept me strong and finally showed me there was something better for me out there. I had already found that something better but I was fighting against God's will...but I finally really heard God speak to me.

About a week after my breakup, I sent Ronnie a message on Facebook apologizing for hurting him and misleading him. I didn't know if he would ever speak to me, but he did...he replied. Over the next 24 hrs, we talked about things and I asked him for forgiveness. I decided we needed to talk in person and he invited me to his place. He hugged me when I got there (I knew then that I still may have a chance with this wonderful man that God brought into my life). We hung out that night with some of his friends and let me tell ya, it was like we had been together for years!

I knew the chemistry was still there from the first time we met and we both could feel it. So, we talked some more and we decided we would try to make this work. Neither of us could be just friends, our hearts were already in it!